You know that part in the Wizard of Oz where the wicked witch sky writes to intimidate Dorothy to give up? I love that image of smoke words in the sky, not only because it terrified and fascinated me as a child, but because it matches my own inner dialog about school and becoming a therapist. Because like Dorothy, I am finding myself in the part of the "adventure" "journey" "educational process" that is not really what I signed up for. I am exhausted. But also like Dorothy, I am carrying on. Because just like "over the rainbow" is not just good times in Munchkin land, it is also ominous smoke message, witches and flying monkeys, Art therapy grad school in our particular eco-socio-political-medical climate is ALOT. This journey to becoming a therapist has the same ups and downs and many "Surrender Dorothy" moments. It's everything I wanted and more than I bargained for all at the same time.
But my favorite part of this whole "Surrender Dorothy" metaphor is that this ominous message is just SMOKE. The command to surrender, give up, stress out etc. when explored with a mindful approach is nothing more than a passing thought or feeling. I can watch it evaporate into a clear sky.
For the art making portion, I was thinking about artistic identity and how when I first started I would have 100% said that artistic identity is primary, and I could not quite conceive of how my own practice would change via the educational process. But it has! Today after we did our art directive practice I came home and just played with color and abstraction rather than work on my oil paintings. I am seeing color and material in new ways, ways that I am really excited about, but just like Dorothy this new leg of the adventure can feel daunting.